Food Bank Fundraiser Results!
To all of you beautiful people, with your hearts on your sleeves and your souls in your smiles,
My high goal for our fundraiser was to be able to donate $1000 to the San Diego Food Bank, and we stomped that goal by raising $1500!!! For ever $1 donated, 5 meals can be provided. $1500 equals 7,500 meals! And, with the dollar for dollar match by Mission Federal Credit Union, that means 15,000 meals can be provided!!!! Humbled and ecstatic doesn't even begin to explain how I am feeling. YOU have blown me away which I will gush more about below.
When I left my corporate job and set out to start this company, I had stars in my eyes and knew in my heart I wanted to make the world a better place. On the day I walked into Human Resources to quit my job, I sat in my car hoping for a sign. I hadn't made a final decision, and I really couldn't afford financially to quit, but knew I was miserable and had to make a decision.
I couldn't do that job one more day and I couldn't continue to share my gifts with an industry that cared so much about marketing, margins, and profits over the quality of products and lives of their people. It didn't seem to matter how much energy I gave, or how much revenue I generated, or how many customers I made happy, there was very little appreciation or opportunity, and they just wanted more and more. Sales goals were set so high and the reward for achieving them was simply, to keep your job. Increases in sales were always expected, and if your sales didn't increase, you were out. The saying goes "you are only as good as your last 'flash." Meaning, your worth is determined by how much you sell.
While I sat their in my car asking for a sign...that Katy Perry song about the plastic bag drifting through the wind came on the radio. I had never really listened to the words before, but all of a sudden it was like she was singing them just for me.
'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
I turned off the car, walked straight up to the third floor, and quit. I had no plan. I had only sold a few Sugar Balms to friends, family, and co-workers, but I just knew there was something more impactful I had to do. In all honesty, I really had NO idea what to do, and hardly a dollar in the bank, but I had righteous determination and that was enough adrenaline to get me going. Truthfully, if someone had mapped out exactly what it would take to get from there to here, I doubt I would have gone to HR that day and I would probably still be in that job.
I've had some very valuable time for reflection and evaluation these past few weeks, and now that I look back, it took absolute DELUSION to walk out of a salaried position at a prestigious company into the unknown. It was like I walked off a cliff, but didn't know there was nothing but air below my feet. I just kept looking up ahead, walking towards that warm, glowing sun I will call my "vision." I After a few weeks of being "self-employed", I looked down and froze with fear. I realized I had NO idea what to do next or what I had gotten myself into.
I had one product and wanted to change an entire industry! #Delusional. But, I had read a book called Bird by Bird, by Anne Lamott, which is a heartwarming story that illustrates the lesson of taking things one step at a time. Whenever I was frustrated or overwhelmed, I would whisper to myself, "bird by bird" and just keep making small steps towards my vision.
I would be grossly misleading you if I told you I just always calmly took things "bird by bird." There have been countless amazing and wonderful experiences along this journey, but there have also been meltdowns, fear, sadness, sacrifice, negative self-talk, weight gain, exhaustion, roadblocks, setbacks, failures, mistakes, confusion, etc.
And, right now, I could not be more grateful that I was too delusional to realize that I had stepped off a cliff and there was nothing but air under my feet and a vision on the horizon, because it has lead me to find the most incredible and amazing Humans, who have come together to raise $1500 for the San Diego Food Bank in just a few days.
I love the phrase "your vibe attracts your Tribe." All those years ago, I really only knew that I wanted to make the world a better place. I wanted to make Women feel valuable and loved. I didn't want to have to "sell" things to Women because I respect them and know they are super intelligent, discernible thinkers who can make great decisions for themselves. I wanted to make things beautiful. I wanted to make Women feel beautiful without every talking about "beauty." I wanted to change the definition of "beauty" and stop talking about facial features and start talking about lighting up the world! I wanted to attract a community of Women who wanted to take care of each other instead of competing against, and comparing each other. And, I wanted to create an organization that could, and would help people.
One of the lines in that Katy Perry song says:
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine.
I may have ignited the light of Beaute Nouveau, but it truly is ALL OF YOU that make this light shine so brightly and "shoot across the sky-y-y!" From the bottom of my heart, thank you. Thank you so much for your generosity and for being my Tribe because you confirm that my vision wasn't just an illusion.
I also want to encourage any of you who have a vision. Even if it isn't perfectly clear. Even if it is just a bright sun on the horizon at this point. It is worth stepping towards. It doesn't have to be something big, even if it is just one change that would impact your life positively. The process will develop as you keep moving forward, and what develops will expand and delight you everyday and there is no telling what the effects will be or how far they will reach. If I can help by sharing my experience with you I would gladly contribute. I've learned that if you just keep looking forward to your vision, there is so much more than air under your feet - even if you can't see everything that is actually there.
This experience has inspired me in unimaginable ways, and I look forward to sharing how we are going to continue to expand our impact and help our community. Stay tuned!
PS: check out stories on Instagram this week to watch me make the donation! It will be live Tuesday and saved in Highlights after.